the word to describe my fragile mind. so very fragile. and can be affected oh so easily. im very sorry i act the way i do. i dont understand why i cant just be happy with what is going on. im scared of loosing you to him. that is the honest truth. your my best friend, my mascot, my number one, my llama, my better half, i can go on and on. i know you relieve my angry thoughts all the time. and tell me again and again you wont leave me. so how come i cant realize that? i still feel alone. in a room full of people i feel alone. does that make sense? i just want to move. maybe im meant to be alone. even though i cant stand it. i need someone to constantly be with me. im so needy. fuck. thats probably why nobody wants me.
speaking of nobody wanting me.
maybe if i fake some confidence, people will think i am. besides the people who read this, they know my true thoughts. that i hate mirrors. or anything that shows back a reflection. that my shortness angers me. and my eyes. why cant i just. change them.
but really though, this is me. its not like by saying i wish i looked like someone else i will magically turn into someone else. i just need to accept im a curvy short browneyed mofucka.
it will just take time.
bye. shut the fuck up alyssa.
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