officially

i have been diagnosed with ADHD.
surprise surprise.
anyone else think you've got it?
heres a little checklist.

has difficulty paying attention or staying focused on a task or activity
has problems finishing assignments at school or home and jumps from one activity to another
has trouble focusing on instructions and difficulty following through
loses or forgets things such as homework
is easily distracted, even when doing something fun
has problems paying close attention to details or makes careless mistakes
has trouble organizing tasks and activities
has difficulty waiting one's turn
interrupts or intrudes on other people
blurts out answers before questions have been completed
fidgets with hands or feet or squirms about when seated
feels restless
talks excessively and has trouble engaging in activities quietly
A sense of underachievement, of not meeting one?s goals (regardless of how much one has accomplished)
Difficulty getting organized
Chronic procrastination or trouble getting started
Many projects going simultaneously; trouble with follow-through
Tendency to say what comes to mind without necessarily considering the timing or appropriateness of the remark
An ongoing search for high stimulation
A tendency to be easily bored
Easy distractibility, trouble focusing attention, tendency to tune out or drift away in the middle of a page or a conversation, often coupled with an ability to focus at times
Often creative, intuitive, highly intelligent
Trouble going through established channels, following proper procedure
Impatient; low tolerance for frustration
Impulsive, either verbally or in action, as in impulsive spending of money, changing plans, enacting new schemes or career plans, and the like
Tendency to worry needlessly, endlessly; tendency to scan the horizon looking for something to worry about alternating with inattention to or disregard for actual dangers
Sense of impending doom, insecurity, alternating with high risk-taking
Depression, especially when disengaged from a project
Restlessness
Tendency toward active behavior
Chronic problems with self-esteem
Inaccurate self-observation
Family history of manic-depressive illness, depression, substance abuse, or other disorders of impulse control or mood

Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light.

Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

A true friend is one who thinks you are a good egg even if you are half-cracked.

i love you alyssa

written by yareli.ALYSSAS BEST FRIEND IN THE ENTIRE WORLD.

long time no post

i havnt been speaking my mind on here. than agin, who would want to listen?
i love my best friends. and i loved my weekend. take me back to everything.
<3

Manic.

i can never be good enough. nope.
she thinks of him. i think of her. she laughs with them. cries with me.
it is strange how bi polar tonight was. maryjane helped the mood get set. happy and fun. then. it hit. a million realizations at the same time. swarmed me. drowned me. took over me. its almost as i understand now. completely. but why? FUCK. if i could just get some answers. the sky. the lights. it was all so hypnotizing. but she was somewhere else. as was i. at this moment in time. im numb. so i watch movies so i dont have to think about anything.

oh and to YOU, this wasnt about you. your selfish. and you broke my heart. no. you shattered it.

basically.

lifes getting better. its not good. its just getting better.