Manic.

i can never be good enough. nope.
she thinks of him. i think of her. she laughs with them. cries with me.
it is strange how bi polar tonight was. maryjane helped the mood get set. happy and fun. then. it hit. a million realizations at the same time. swarmed me. drowned me. took over me. its almost as i understand now. completely. but why? FUCK. if i could just get some answers. the sky. the lights. it was all so hypnotizing. but she was somewhere else. as was i. at this moment in time. im numb. so i watch movies so i dont have to think about anything.

oh and to YOU, this wasnt about you. your selfish. and you broke my heart. no. you shattered it.